When I woke up this morning, I asked myself, "What is life about?"
I found the answer in my room...
The fan said, "Be cool."
The roof said, "Aim high."
The window said, "See the world!"
The clock said, "Every minute is precious."
The mirror said, "Reflect before you act."
The calendar said, "Be up to date."
The door said, "Push hard for your goals."
The floor said, "Kneel down and pray"...

Me being happy just feels strange

And I can see it in your face

It bothers you to see me smile

I guess you'd rather see me down

If you only knew
What I feel for you
If you only lived for me
the way I live for you
I'd be in heaven
And my dreams would come true


Cuz all I ever wanted
is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I ever wanted
is you


If you were my own
to caress and hold
I would shower you with love
and drown within your soul
Cuz I, live and breathe for you
And I really need you to know


That all I ever wanted
is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I ever wanted
is you


Everything I do is for you
You are every part of me
I don't want to face
Another day, alone
Without your love..



Mariah Carey "all i've ever wanted"

If I don't break free
free of this relationship
I'll never know what's out there.

I'll never know what I could be.

I deserve so much
after all I've been put through.

If I stay, I'll be ok.
I'll be safe.
But I won't be happy.

What keeps me here,
thoughts that I'm not good enough
to have more.
To be more.


I need to live
so I can learn to feel.

Because right now you have me
confined.
I can't breathe. I feel,
suffocated.

7 years.
One card a year for Valentine's.
Perhaps 4-5 birthday cards.
Flowers, twice.
Flowers the first time we met.
Flowers when you hurt me the most,
and I was stupid enough to take you back.

A few days ago I asked for flowers.
Your response: "is it a special occasion?"
That tore me apart.
Do I not deserve flowers just because?

All these years I've been molding myself
to accustom your needs. Your wants.
And now I'm trying to figure out why would I change myself for you?

I used to write. All the time. Poetry.
Love songs. Anything romantic and sweet.

I used to paint. No Van Gogh here.
But it made me happy.

I've lost passion.

Isn't love supposed to be filled with passion?
Heat. Romance. Shouldn't your mate make you come alive?


I've asked all the time- are you happy?
You say Yes.

I ask why you love me,
you have no reasons.

Shouldn't there be some reason why?
Shouldn't you love me for the way I laugh?
For my big brown eyes?
My cute birth mark on my leg?
For the way I say certain words with more emphasis than others?

Just one reason? Any reason.

I've become secluded.
I have no close friends anymore.

The only reason why I can honestly say I've stayed-
Where else am I gonna go?

Who else will want me?


You've made me simply, lose all faith.

Leona Lewis "Happy"

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't you love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be


So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy
Just wanna be happy


Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear
But all these days, they feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me out of here
I can't stand by your side
And watch this life pass me by, pass me by


So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy


So any turns that I can't see,
like I'm a stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything..



So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy

Soft heavenly eyes gazed into me
Transcending space and time
And I was rendered still
There were no words for me to find at all
As I stood there beside myslef
I could see you and no one else

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe
I fell so deep
When I saw you
When I saw you
I’d never be
I’d never be the same

Only once in a lifetime love rushes in
Changing you with the tide
And dawn’s ribbon of light
Bursts through thte dark
Wakening you inside
And I thought it was all untrue
Until there all at once I knew

When I saw you
When I saw you
I could not breathe
I fell so deep
When I saw you
When I saw you
I’d never be
I’d never be the same

With no beginning and
Without an end
You are the one for me
And it’s evident
And your eyes told me so
And your eyes let me know





~mariah carey~

Shawty badder than a 3 year old
keep playing and imma eat her like a pita roll
Im just sayin with my love I could feed her soul
two day getaway and we dont need our clothes
we at the pool and she lookin like a center fold
two tattoos but she say she gettin plenty mo
She got Indian in her family, Seminole
me and shawty go together like chemicals
and she get mad when I call other woman hoes
you send a rose, I pick some flowers and send her those
tall glass of Merlot get her in the mode
two tall glasses of Merlot get her out her robe
I whisper in her ear, than lick around her lobe
and when she check her watch, it’s never time to go
and with her brain she should make the honor roll
And when I came, she caught me like the common cold.

God damn you the shit
and I’ll rip my heart out and hand you the shit
And I dont really know how to handle this shit
But tonight its moonlight and candles and shit

With you baby
With you baby
with you baby
with you baby
With youuuu and only you

Uh I say damn I must be left cause you the best I ever seen right
shawty put me on, you got me gone like some green lights
See you with your girls, they probably telling that he aint right
Bet they be the same bitches at the wedding throwing rice
Lets get together over night
Shawty im a pro and you are lookin like the protoype
But see that I took your advice,
sometimes you got to blow it twice then shake it up and roll the dice
Im crusin on the road of life but I need a passenger
Appettite for lovin, ma im hungry like a scavenger
I-I be on that lavender
I-I be in the bath with her
Then I gotta go under that water like a mariner



Now she dont know about me
But Imma put her on it
And she aint show up out me
But cant go without me
We probably aint supposed to be together
but I wonder if our love affair could last forever
And shawty Im with ya
Smoke alot of weed but I could never forget ya
Then I told her to her face,
If everyone was like you the World would be a better place





Wayne-With You

I want your body close, you on top of me, can you feel it
I'm gonna make your body drip all over me, baby me inside of you
So take off all your clothes and throw them on the floor
You wont need them
Cuz I'm gonna give you every little thing you need and more
Let me tell you what I wanna do...


I wanna make love, sweet love, all night long to the rising of the sun
Bring your body close to mine, it feels so right, don't let go of me
I wanna make love, sweet love, all night long to the rising of the sun
Bring your body close to mine, it feels so right, don't let go of me






Baby I can give to you any way you like it
You just let me know
I'm giving you the key so you can ride me fast or slow
Cuz on this ride of love, we're gonna go
To places you and I ain't never been before

Baby imagine me kissing all over you
Your body's trembling, I know you're feeling me
Ooh I know it's getting serious
And I'm tired of being curious
Cuz my body is filled with lust
Can't take it no more I am about to explode

I wanna make love, sweet love, all night long to the rising of the sun
Bring your body close to mine, it feels so right, don't let go of me
I wanna make love, sweet love, all night long to the rising of the sun
Bring your body close to mine, it feels so right, don't let go of me







Girl the chemistry between us, I can't explain
I love to hear you call my name
I can see it in your eyes that you want me too
Don't you be afraid of what I'm gon' give to you
Girl the tears you cry are out of happiness
Pleasure instead of loneliness
Baby every single part of me inside of you
Pleasing you, teasing you, making sweet love

I wanna make love, sweet love, all night long to the rising of the sun
Bring your body close to mine, it feels so right, don't let go of me
I wanna make love, sweet love, all night long to the rising of the sun
Bring your body close to mine, it feels so right, don't let go of me

Marvin's Room- you missed me

Cant believe you called
What's it been 3 years?
Didn't think u had my # still
Guess u still aint over me

I been waiting so long
To tell you I've moved on
But then I hear ur voice now-
Can't believe I fell so quickly


How the fuck u think u can call me up now
It's been 3 years 8 months why r u in town?
How the fuck u think u can call me up now
You must know I'm happy - bet u hate that now

ohh ohhh


We both know I could do better
Why u still wanna manipulate me
We both know I could do better
I wanna hate u but ur voice wont let me

Wont let me,

oh oh ...

Listen

I'll be there in 10 mins
Gotta put my hair up
Can't believe u called
Can't believe I'm not that strong

I arrive at 430
Just before the break of dawn
You grab me by the waist an
Kiss me on the neck- this is so wrong



How the fuck u think u can call me up now
It's been 3 years 8 months why r u in town?
How the fuck u think u can call me up now
You must know I'm happy- bet u hate that now.

ohhhh


We both know I could do better
Why u still wanna manipulate me
We both know I could do better
But u kissing on my neck I know that u missed me

you missed me...

ohh.. you missed me..

-OFFICIALJ-