the hardest thing

"It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you"

"I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind"

Love Me Tender

Love me tender, love me sweet
Never let me go
You have made my life complete
And I love you so

Love me tender, love me true
All my dreams fulfill
For, my darling I love you
And I always will.

Love me tender, love me dear
Tell me you are mine
I'll be yours through all the years
'Till the end of time

Love me tender, love me true
All my dreams fulfill
For, my darling I love you
And I always will

Love me tender, love me true
All my dreams fulfill
For, my darling I love you
And I always will
Always will

~Elvis~

I like the Norah Jones version. Her voice is simply amazing.

Never

Never talented
Never beautiful
Never wanted
Never enough

-All the things I'm not to you.


All the things I am to me,
funny, smart, amazing, thoughtful, kind, passionate.

Wanting to please everyone before myself. Make you happy before me.

Feeling selfish to ask of anything.


On my hands and knees praying to GOD for things to change
but if change is for the worse, I feel my life is cursed.


i suppose it leaves me to blame.

Some Photography

I am so passionate about photography, here are a few pictures I took at sunset at a local park. I never share my work but these are so beautiful to me. I know I'm so corny. Most people will look at them as just pictures but they mean so much more to me than that.

Same Script, Different Cast..

--I know he's leaving me for you.
~Who said that? Who told you that it's true?


--What is he tellin' you? Could it be the same things that he told me?


~He told me that he loved me.
--I heard that.
~He told me I was beautiful. How did you know? How did you know?
--Because I played that scene before.


This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.
Same script, different cast.

~What you're saying could be true. But how can I take advice from you?

--I'm not hating, But I wish the one before me would have warned me too babe.

~Don't say no more. La La La La La La La La La
--Uncover your ears, girl.
~I'm not listening. La La La La La La La La La

-But I know you hear me. Maybe my reasons are wrong,
But I know that you believe me.


~It's your fault you didn't love him enough.

--That's the problem. I loved him too much.
And when you love him, He becomes unattracted to you.


~Oh no, he's changed and I'll prove you wrong.
--No you won't.
~So go away. Leave us the hell alone! He loves me.
--He'll hurt you.
~He'll stay with me.
--He'll leave you.
~--For sure! For sure!

This is a retake of my life.
You were his star for many nights.
But now the roles have changed.
I'm the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause this will last.
I'm the future, you're his past.

This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,
And you're the leading lady in his life.

Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.

--Enjoy it now.
~Enjoy just now.
--It won't last.
~~I know it will last.

Same script, different cast.


whitney houston-- deborah cox~

Through the rain

When you get caught in the rain
With no where to run
When you are distraught and in pain
Without anyone,
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone it's okay
once you say..

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain.

And if you keep falling down
Don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you'll need to prevail
Once you say..

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain.

And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you
You'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I'm strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain
I can make it through the rain
And stand up once again
And I'll live one more day and I
I can make it through the rain
Oh yes you can
Oh your gonna make it through the
Rain

-Mariah Carey-

Sex Therapy

If this song isn't the sexiest song I don't know what is..








Sex Therapy-Robin Thicke

Stressed out uptight, over worked wound up
Unleash what you got let's explore your naughty side
Follow me where we go, we don't need no bread crumbs
Cant you see baby you're the only one

You are among the few hot women
Let me be your medicine
Cuz I got one thing on my mind I'll be your valentine
Spread your wings and baby fly away


It's your body we can love if you want to
Loud if you want to, scream if you want to
Just let me love you lay right here girl don't be scared of me
Give you sex therapy, give you sex therapy

It's your body we'll go hard if you want to
As hard as you want to, soft as you want to
Just let me love you lay right here I'll be your fantasy
Give you sex therapy, give you sex therapy


Baby that's all for you to do let your body be
I'll lick you down and make you feel like you're out of body
The doctor's here for you

Take you like Twilight I'll bite your neck
You don't have to say anything I'll get you wet
Push you up against the wall, turn you out and turn you on
Yeah, Yeah,.. Woah...

It's your body we can ride and rock and roll..


I'll be your fantasy.. give you sex therapy..

Lightning

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without.
If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with?
Fall head over heels.
I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him?
Forget your head and listen to your heart.
Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back.
Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this.
To make the journey and not fall deeply in love-
well, you haven't lived a life at all.
You have to try.
Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.





You never know, lightning could strike.

Don't Be Afraid

"Don't be afraid to look in my eyes
I'll catch you if you fall in love
Don't be afraid of holdin' me tight
'cause I know what you're thinkin' of
Don't be afraid just say that you're mine
I'll catch you if you fall in love
You don't have to be afraid
If you fall my way boy I'll catch you.


I know it never felt so good
I know it never felt so right
I know you never thought I would,
be alone with you tonight
That look in your eyes it just let's me know
if I hold ya tight you'll never let go
You don't have to be afraid
I'll catch you if you fall my way


I know it never felt so real
I know it never felt so true
I know you never felt like this
'til I wound up lyin' next to you
You don't have to ask
I'll tell you what's up
We both know that it, is more than a crush
You don't have to be afraid
catch you if you fall my way


Hold me...The way you hold me tight
Kiss me...It always feels so nice
Love me...You don't have to be afraid
I'll catch you if you fall my way.."


~Mya

"Sweetest Sin"

Can you imagine us
Making love...
The way you would feel the first time that we touched
Can you think of it...
The way I dream of it
I want you to see like I'm seeing you...
It's a picture of perfection
The vision of you and me...


Your lips upon my lips,
Can you just picture this...
Your finger tips on my finger tips,
Your skin upon my skin...
Would be the Sweetest Sin...


All night I lie awake,
Cause it's too much to take...
Dreaming about the love that we could make...
All day I think of schemes
To get you next to me,
I want you so bad that I can barely breathe...
It's a sign of my obsession,
That I can't stop thinkin bout'


Your lips upon my lips,
Can you invision this...
Temptation that I could never resist,
Your skin upon my skin...
Would be the Sweetest Sin...


It would feel so good,
To be so bad...
You don't know how bad...I want that
I would do anything to feel your love...

Car Fetish

Set Fire to the Third Bar

I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from 'A' to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My fingers in creases of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms




After I have travelled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
and I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

Marilyn Monroe

"What do I wear in bed? Why, Chanel No. 5, of course"





"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."




"I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love."





"I don't mind living in a man's world, as long as I can be a woman in it."





"Sex is part of nature. I go along with nature."







"You never know what life is like, until you have lived it."




"I have too many fantasies to be a housewife.... I guess I am a fantasy."

Love Quotes

A man content to go to heaven alone will never go to heaven.
Boethius


A woman knows the face of the man she loves as a sailor knows the open sea.
Honore de Balzac


We loved with a love that was more than love.
Edgar Allan Poe




We waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love.
Tom Robbins





Love is a game that two can play and both win.
Eva Gabor


Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.
Robert Frost




Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind,
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.William Shakespeare, Mid-Summer Night's Dream, 1595


We loved with a love that was more than love.
Edgar Allan Poe





At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet.
Plato

T-Shirt

Try'na decide if
I really wanna go out tonight
I Never used to go out without you
Not sure I remember how to
Gonna be late but
All my girls gonna' have to wait 'cause
I dont know if I like my outfit
I tried everything in my closet


Nothin feels right when Im not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos
Takin them off 'cause I feel a fool
Try'na dress up when Im missin you
Imma step out of this lingerie
Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
In bed I lay

With nothing but your T-shirt on


Gotta be strong but Im
Really hurtin now that you're gone
I thought maybe I'd do some shopping
But I couldnt get past the door and
Now I dont know, now I dont know If Im
Ever really gonna let you go and I
Couldnt even leave my apartment
I'm stripped down, torn up about it

Nothin feels right when Im not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos
Takin them off 'cause I feel a fool
Try'na dress up when Im missin' you
Im'a step out of this lingerie
Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
In bed I lay

With nothing but your T-shirt on
'cause I miss you

With nothing but your T-shirt on...

Scorpio

Scorpio and Sex.

Scorpio is one of the water astrological signs of the zodiac and some would say that it is the most sexual of all the signs.
Most Scorpio’s have do have a smoldering sex appeal, they are sexually highly volatile and they can be volcanic.
The Scorpio sexual appetite is at times insatiable, powerfully libidinous and intensely sexy, the Scorpio ignores the taboos.
The Scorpio lover can at times use sex to manipulate or to control their lover. Scorpios are intense and polarized about everything within their lives and that includes sex.
Some higher minded Scorpio’s will see sex as an opportunity to explore the mystical depths of their emotions.
Scorpios are inquisitive, experimental and they may use sexual props to saturate the environment with eroticism.
Their sexuality can be described in two words, variation and power.
Scorpios desire a varied sex life.
However much a Scorpio may enjoy sex they will use it as a potent weapon for domination and survival.
Most of the time it is the Scorpio who is in charge of the sexual relationship.
The more aroused a Scorpio is, the more uninhibited and dominant they become. Sexually this sign can become totally involved and uninhibited.

Dangerously in Love

Baby I love you, you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me, there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the seed
With you and God, who's my sunlight, I'm blooming, grown so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud, proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I know you love me, love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you, sometimes makes me wanna cry
I Realize all my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side

Every time I see your face, my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love, to hold, to feel, to breathe
To live you
Dangerously in love...


I love you..Dangerously in love..

Yesterday

Yesterday we said our last goodbyes.
Darling, yesterday we gave it one last try.
Though we often said that we would never let it come to this.
I have nothing left to give.

I can only sit and think of yesterday.

Baby, that look upon your face
Every tear that I have shed.
We're so far beyond the point of no return
But I can't let this go, my love,
So inside I must remember baby.

Yesterday we said our last goodbye.
And yesterday we gave it one last try.
Though we'd often said that we would never let it come to this.
I have nothing left to give.
I can only sit and think of yesterday.

So how can I mend a broken heart?
Tell me, baby.
And how do I make a brand new start, baby?
How do I learn to love again,
When all I do is think of all we planned,
And imagine we could someday make it right..

I dreamed you called my name
And arose to see that everything had changed.

Yesterday we said our last goodbye, baby.
Yesterday we gave it one last try.
Though we'd often said that we would never let it come to this.
I have nothing left to give.

I can only sit and think of yesterday.

It's good forever, oh baby.
'Cause I'm going to miss you, baby.
You promised forever, baby.
I wish, baby, that we could see forever, baby.

It's breakin' my heart
Why does this have to be?
I can only sit and think of yesterday.

We said our last goodbye
Yes we did, baby
Yesterday
We gave it one more try
Some time you got to walk on baby, baby
And try to get another game of lover
Yesterday is gone away
No more tomorrows
Should we go darling?

We said our last goodbye

E........

Can't hold it back
You know I'm so addicted to you
Cravings attack
Whenever I get closer to you
I'm in control
Whenever you're away
I just want you here with me boy

Let's take a ride
I'll show you all the avenues
Hop in my coupe
I only got a room for two
Let's just explore
My only destination is you
I'll tell you what I want to do

Baby, Can I take you to a place
Where we can go far away
Let's take a chance tonight
Follow me to...

Extasy
You and me
I'm feeling you

Extasy
You and me
boy you know I'm
I'm feeling you

The mood is set
My temperature is rising
I'm getting hot
And there ain't no denying
I know a spot
Where can just go get lost together
Right now I'll do whatever

You take me high
But I really want to go off
Hearts beating fast
Temp is still moving..slow..
My fantasy
And boy just take control
Come on won't you let me know
If I..

Can I take you to a place
Where we can go far away
Let's take a chance tonight
Follow me to...Extasy

Boy you got me twisted
I must admit it
I just can't resist
I can't get you off my senses
You make me feel brand new
The things you do
Oh, you know that I'm feenin' for you

I just got to have it
It's getting drastic
I can't break the habit
I'm just an addict
For your love
It's like a drug
Baby let me take you to
E.....


I want to take you there..

M.D.J. "Impossible"

"I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did.

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did.

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did."

Dru Hill - These Are The Times

Lie About Us

I can't wait to tell them about us..

Baby I know when we started out there were things you didn't know
but babygirl we got a lot of things we need to discuss
I know I'm asking for alot, but just trust.
You say that things getting old
Sneakin 'round creepin and love on the low
but babygirl I can't wait till it's officially us
I can't wait to let them know about us.

So please don't say you wanna give up.
How do I tell her that I'm falling in love
And I know your waiting patiently for that day
When we no longer have to lie about us.
When I'm with her all I want is your touch,
And when you call me I don't wanna hang up,
And I know I say it often but I can't wait
Till we no longer have to lie about us.

Liar Liar

We've both been lying to each other.
And whats funny is that I am just figuring this out.
I know I'm a liar. I lie to protect myself.
I'm still trying to figure out why you would lie though.

If we just came out and said the truth I know that we would not want to speak to each other again.
So on that note- You tell me what I should do? Continue lying? Or are we better off not knowing each other?

Its okay if you don't want to talk. I will be fine and continue my life, and the same goes for you I'm sure.

But I don't want to have regrets someday. And I don't want to say 'what if'

I'm leaving it all up to you.